Welcome to Deeper Motive
My name is Chris Maddera. Last year, I decided to turn this site in a 365 Days diary to track my progress on accomplishing my goals. That failed after two days because, having announced my intentions to the world, I let fear of failure get the best of me, so I quit. I gave up before I started, and this site has been sitting here without being updated since then.
UPDATED: 03.03.2010 – And I did it again. It’s been almost 250 days since my last entry for this site. Aside from this paragraph in bold, the rest of the paragraph is all part of the original entry from the summer of 2009. It still applies.
But, now, I’m back, and I’m in this for the long-haul. If there is one thing harder than starting a project, it’s making the decision to start a project. Like many people, I put things off until later, until some unspecified time in the future. How many of us act like there will always be time later to attend to our creative passions, to feed the artistic side of ourselves? We use all kinds of reasonable excuses to avoid getting down to the business of creative work. We’re all just sooo busy with _____, but somehow we’ve managed to watch 15 hours of television a week! It doesn’t matter what the excuse is. If I’m honest with myself, I know I could have given up a few hours of watching TV to work on that novel, that screenplay, that cardio routine, or whatever it is that’s been on my goals list forever, waiting for someday.
And forever is the problem. There is no forever. It only feels like there is…sometimes. I’m not here to guilt anyone into working on their own projects (although I wouldn’t mind inspiring people to do it). I’m here to share my goals, my creative processes, my hangups, setbacks, thoughts, frustrations, and practice with you. I can only hope that someone finds anything I write here helpful.
Deeper Motive doesn’t exist because I’m good at being creative and productive. It exists because I suck at it. But I want to do things better, and I want to do better things. And waiting until someday to do this stuff isn’t working out that well for me. I’m going to work on it now instead, and see what happens.
Welcome to Deeper Motive.
